“Moth”
A poem about existing with the memory of you
It’s strange.
I saw a moth in my garden.
It was beautiful:
a small beige friend with a cheerful pink on its wings.
I looked it up in case it was a pest and I needed to worry about it.
It was hard trying to find it since I didn’t have a chance to take its picture before it fluttered away.
But when I found it, my heart kind of broke.
I could still be wrong
(how would I know, I’m not a lepidopterist),
but all signs pointed to this species:
a Schinia florida.
Florida.
Why of all things did it have to be Florida?
Even in my garden, my safe space, there’s some kind of reminder of you.
R____ had said today,
“everything is a pollinator”.
In a weird way, if I look at humans as gardens, that is true:
you are a part of my ecosystem,
and whether you are a pest or a friend,
you just exist here for now.
And maybe I should learn to accept and live with that truth.